Thursday, May 08, 2008

Dysfunction Junction

My mom called last night. Probably not a big deal to most, but I haven't heard from her in 2 years. In that 2 years I haven't been able to get in touch with her because she is a flake that never truly takes care of herself and usually stays with other people. I spent most of my life being the mother in the relationship. Until I moved to the other side of the country. It's a long story, maybe one day I will lay out all the details of it, but suffice it to say she isn't "mother material". If she needs something, you hear from her, otherwise, not so much. I have a 16yr old brother that she hasn't seen in over 2 yrs. His father took him and left, (he is another piece of work) she never got him back, the father died, my brother went to live with relatives that he never knew. My mom has no idea where my brother is, nor as she attempted to find out. (She has a history of bailing out on kids about that age. My other brother and I were both left to fend for ourselves when I was 13, he was 11.) Anyway, I know where my brother is, have seen him and talk to him regularly. I have no intention of passing the info along. I'm rambling, I know. I haven't quite figured out how to put this all into a coherent post.

Back to the phone call...It was 10:30pm, Jon and I were already in bed watching a crappy movie (First Sunday, Don't bother!) when the phone rang. I didn't recognize the number, so I let it go to voice mail. When I listened to the message it was my mom, drunk as usual, saying something about needing my address because she has a videotape of my son in Kindergarten. I don't really want to call her back, yet I feel like I should. My head is spinning, I have knots in my stomach, and I am a bit pissed off! I don't know what to do.


Anonymous said...

You should call her, if only for the sake of getting the videotape back. THEN, when you get the tape, make a copy and send it back. If she's held onto the orifginal this long, perhaps she'll look at the video someday and realize what she is missing out on and do something about herself. I've fallen many times and been to the point where I just didn't care, but have always been able to pull myself out, and usually it's for the sake of my neices and nephews. She's lived her life, she should wake up and realize there's a lot of joy in watching other's grow.